The topic of real vampyrism became a part of my life in the last couple of months. It is motive and motivation. I try to give an insight without giving an exhaustive description. In the end the topic itself is an inexhaustible one and every single one has to find his way. I am interested in the moral aspects as well as the unconscious processes that lead to self-identification with the vampire as a non-mythological being. In doing so I try to include different explanatory approaches and explain here and there theories for the emergence of this very own way of life. In the end, this is a blog about my own awakening and the changes it causes in my life and my perception of it. I am on my way to call myself a vampire – a dark side that needs to be integrated.